Friends who understand the subject of visions only read this, the rest of us don't, so there's no need to be sarcastic.
For me, there are times when I am certain that the visions I have are true.
Sometimes I feel like it's the work of the devil
Whenever I have faith that they are true visions, these visions increase.
When I deny these visions and say that they are the work of the devil, the visions stop.
I have experienced this period more than once over the years.
The last one was about a month ago and in a state of despair where I felt that no visions were coming true, so I told myself that these visions are the work of the devil to lead me astray, so I no longer believe in these visions, although some of my visions have already come true a short while ago, but in a period of despair I had visions on several consecutive days in which I convinced myself that it was the work of the devil, and as you say, I rejected the blessing and deliberately forgot it and did not write it down on the year, so I forgot it already, and then I stopped having visions from then on, and I have been without visions for more than a month, and several months ago I did this, so I did not have visions for a long time.
Do I ignore the visions and disbelieve them, or do I believe they are true and they return to me?
But the problem with believing that the visions I see are true is that I am afraid of being led astray by them and finding myself one day on my deathbed without the visions having been fulfilled and feeling that Satan has been leading me astray.
During the previous years, I used to have these feelings. I would lie about the visions and they would stop, and I would believe in them and they would come back to me frequently, and I would see many visions with prophets and future events.
I am now in the stage of resisting myself and regretting the period when I disbelieved the visions that came to me. I long for the visions of the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) and I feel that the interruption of the visions was a result of my disbelief of those visions and rejection of the grace that Allah bestowed upon me.
What is the explanation for what is happening to me? Is this normal? What is the advice?