{"id":26609,"date":"2025-04-09T12:33:17","date_gmt":"2025-04-09T12:33:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tamerbadr.com\/?p=26609"},"modified":"2025-07-03T14:22:22","modified_gmt":"2025-07-03T14:22:22","slug":"9-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamerbadr.com\/tr\/archives\/26609","title":{"rendered":"Ortaokul ve lise y\u0131llar\u0131mdan baz\u0131 an\u0131lar\u0131m"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Ortaokul ve lise y\u0131llar\u0131mdan baz\u0131 an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 anlataca\u011f\u0131m.
O zamanki ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnde bulundurmal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o zamanlar yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m baz\u0131 pervas\u0131zca hareketleri bulacaks\u0131n\u0131z.
Okuma a\u015fk\u0131m, ortaokulda, yakla\u015f\u0131k 13 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken, babam\u0131n her g\u00fcn bize ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 El-Ahram gazetesini her g\u00fcn okudu\u011fum zamanlarda ba\u015flad\u0131. Okuma a\u015fk\u0131m, ki\u015fisel har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biriktirip kitap\u00e7\u0131lardan veya her y\u0131l gitti\u011fim Kahire Uluslararas\u0131 Kitap Fuar\u0131'ndan kitap almamla geli\u015fti. Dini, siyasi, tarihi, co\u011frafi, bilimsel ve daha bir\u00e7ok farkl\u0131 alanda okumalar yap\u0131yordum ve bu, b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde kitap yazmamda bana yard\u0131mc\u0131 oldu.
Cihat hakk\u0131ndaki bilgim, \u00f6zellikle Afganistan'daki Arap ve Afgan m\u00fccahitleri takip etmemle, okumalar\u0131mla ba\u015flad\u0131. Say\u0131lar\u0131 az ve g\u00fc\u00e7leri zay\u0131f olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen, onlardan etkilenmi\u015ftim. O zaman\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00fc\u00e7lerine nas\u0131l kar\u015f\u0131 koyabilirler ve Ruslara a\u011f\u0131r kay\u0131plar verdirebilirlerdi? O gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta onlarla birlikte olmay\u0131 ummu\u015f ve b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde onlarla cihat etmeyi hayal etmi\u015ftim. Ancak bu i\u015fgal, ortaokulu bitirdikten sonra, yakla\u015f\u0131k on be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndayken, 1989'da sona erdi. Daha sonra m\u00fccahitler aras\u0131ndaki i\u00e7 \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar nedeniyle hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na u\u011frad\u0131m. O zamanlar onlarla birlikte olmak istemedim, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc aralar\u0131nda sava\u015fman\u0131n ka\u00e7\u0131nmam\u0131z gereken bir imtihandan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.
Ortaokulu bitirdim ve duaya, Tanr\u0131'y\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ve O'nun dinini nas\u0131l destekleyece\u011fime olan ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m artt\u0131. Okulda teneff\u00fcslerde d\u00fczenli olarak okul camisinde \u00f6\u011fle namaz\u0131n\u0131 cemaatle k\u0131lar ve namazdan sonra din dersleri dinlerdim.
Suudi Arabistan'da yay\u0131nlanan haftal\u0131k bir gazete olan Al-Muslimun'u har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131mla al\u0131rd\u0131m. D\u00fcnya genelindeki M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n durumunu ele al\u0131yordu. Bu gazete sayesinde Filipinler, Ke\u015fmir, \u00c7in'deki Do\u011fu T\u00fcrkistan, Sovyetler Birli\u011fi \u0130slam cumhuriyetleri, \u00c7e\u00e7enistan ve Bosna-Hersek'teki M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n durumunu \u00f6\u011frendim. Hatta gazeteye Bosna-Hersek'e gidip orada cihat etmek i\u00e7in ne yapabilece\u011fimi sordum ama cevap alamad\u0131m. O d\u00f6nemde Pakistan b\u00fcy\u00fckel\u00e7ili\u011fini aray\u0131p Hint i\u015fgaline kar\u015f\u0131 cihat etmek i\u00e7in Ke\u015fmir'e gitmeme izin vermelerini istedim, ancak M\u0131s\u0131rl\u0131 bir \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan\u0131n talebimi kar\u015f\u0131lamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemesi beni \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtt\u0131. \u00c7e\u00e7enistan'a gitmeyi de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.

Mart 1992'de ba\u015flayan Bosna Sava\u015f\u0131, hayat\u0131mda bir d\u00f6n\u00fcm noktas\u0131yd\u0131. Bu M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlara yard\u0131m etmek i\u00e7in hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim. Toplu katliamlar\u0131, M\u00fcsl\u00fcman kad\u0131nlara y\u00f6nelik tecav\u00fczleri ve di\u011fer trajedileri okudu\u011fumda \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm. M\u00fcsl\u00fcman h\u00fck\u00fcmetlerden ve halklardan bu trajediyi durdurmak i\u00e7in beklenen tepkiyi alamay\u0131nca daha da \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm ve hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na u\u011frad\u0131m. Har\u00e7l\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 biriktirip \u0130slami Yard\u0131m Komitesi'ne ba\u011f\u0131\u015flard\u0131m. Okuldan sonra Bosnal\u0131 M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlara ba\u011f\u0131\u015f yapmak i\u00e7in Dar\u00fclhikme'ye giderdim, ama buna ra\u011fmen onlardan geri kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim.
Asvan'a, ard\u0131ndan Sudan'a ve ard\u0131ndan Bosna'ya gitmeyi planlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. O zamanlar, bu maceray\u0131 ba\u015fka kimseyle planlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in kolayca tutuklanabilece\u011fimi akl\u0131m alm\u0131yordu. Bu bireysel bir hareketti, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc M\u0131s\u0131r'da Bosna'ya m\u00fccahit g\u00f6nderen herhangi bir grup veya \u00f6rg\u00fctten haberim yoktu. Bu nedenle, o zamanlar on dokuz ya\u015f\u0131ndan b\u00fcy\u00fck olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve seyahat etmek i\u00e7in pasaportum bile olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in karar\u0131m ani ve iyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclmemi\u015f bir karard\u0131.
Bu karardan sonra aileme bir mektup yaz\u0131p masama b\u0131rakt\u0131m. Giysi \u00e7antam\u0131 al\u0131p ailemden kimsenin haberi olmadan evden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Tren istasyonuna gidip Asvan'a ikinci mevki bir bilet ald\u0131m. Trene ilk bini\u015fimdi. Trene bindi\u011fimde a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 kalabal\u0131k kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m ve binecek yer yoktu. Baz\u0131 yolcular\u0131n, yolcu koltuklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerindeki bagaj koyma yerlerinde oturdu\u011funu fark ettim, ben de yanlar\u0131na \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p oturdum. Saatlerce ac\u0131 \u00e7ektikten ve biletim birka\u00e7 kez kontrol edildikten sonra, Asvan'a varmadan \u00f6nce bilet kontrol\u00f6rlerinden biri bana \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc mevki yolcular\u0131yla birlikte oldu\u011fumu ve klimal\u0131 ikinci mevki koltu\u011funda kendi yerim oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc mevkide oldu\u011fuma \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama Asvan'a varana kadar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc mevkide kald\u0131m.
Asvan seyahatimi Allah'a ve Res\u00fbl\u00fc'ne (s.a.v.) bir t\u00fcr hicret olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum. Bu seyahatin m\u00fckafat\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissetti\u011fim i\u00e7in \u00fcz\u00fclmedim. Asvan'a vard\u0131ktan sonra bir gen\u00e7lik yurdunda yer ay\u0131rtt\u0131m. Bir g\u00fcn sonra, ailemle konu\u015fup sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m konusunda onlar\u0131 rahatlatmam gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Onlar\u0131 arad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131p a\u011flad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fcm ve "Babama ve anneme bunu nas\u0131l yapt\u0131m?" diye sordum. Nerede oldu\u011fumu \u0131srarla sorduklar\u0131nda, Asvan'da oldu\u011fumu s\u00f6yledim ve tekrar eve d\u00f6nmem i\u00e7in yalvard\u0131lar. Yanlar\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, \u0130srail'e kar\u015f\u0131 cihat etme f\u0131rsat\u0131m olsun diye askeri okullardan birine girmeden cihada kat\u0131lamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fark ettim. \u0130srail ile bar\u0131\u015f\u0131n uzun s\u00fcrmeyece\u011fine inan\u0131yordum, ancak sonunda cihat etme f\u0131rsat\u0131m olmad\u0131.
Hayat\u0131m\u0131n bu a\u015famas\u0131nda \u0130hvan'a, Selefilere veya ba\u015fka bir gruba kat\u0131lmay\u0131 hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedim. Tek d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm, M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n zul\u00fcm g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc herhangi bir \u00fclkede sava\u015fmakt\u0131, hepsi bu. Ba\u015fka M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlarla sava\u015fan M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlarla sava\u015fmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyordum ve o d\u00f6nemde siyasete bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131m sadece bu y\u00fczdendi ve bug\u00fcne kadar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncem pek de\u011fi\u015fmedi.
Tabi askere gittikten sonra yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m her \u015fey gizli tutuldu ve kimse bilmiyordu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc biliyordum ki akl\u0131mdan ge\u00e7enler \u00f6\u011frenilirse ya ordudan at\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131m ya da tutuklan\u0131rd\u0131m.
Ortaokul ve lise y\u0131llar\u0131m, bir\u00e7ok M\u00fcsl\u00fcman\u0131n zul\u00fcm g\u00f6rmesi nedeniyle endi\u015fe duydu\u011fum, hayat\u0131m\u0131n karanl\u0131k bir d\u00f6nemiydi ve hayat\u0131m\u0131n bu a\u015famas\u0131n\u0131 benim i\u00e7in kolayla\u015ft\u0131ran tek \u015fey, Peygamber Efendimiz (s.a.v.)'i, Efendimiz \u0130sa (a.s.)'\u0131 ve di\u011fer baz\u0131 vizyonlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm vizyonlard\u0131.
Elbette baz\u0131lar\u0131 "Ne sa\u00e7mal\u0131klar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordun ve yap\u0131yordun?" diyecek. Ama bu, gen\u00e7li\u011fimde hayat\u0131m\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131yd\u0131 ve bundan utanm\u0131yorum. Zaman\u0131 geri alabilseydim, yine de cihat etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Orduya kat\u0131lmayabilirdim ve M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n zul\u00fcm g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc herhangi bir \u00fclkede seyahat edip sava\u015fabilmek i\u00e7in b\u00fcy\u00fcyene kadar beklerdim. Cihat edip \u015fehit olma hayalimi ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmeden hayat\u0131m\u0131 bo\u015fa harcamak yerine.
Ve kim bana yorum yap\u0131p neden seyahat etmiyorsun ve sava\u015fm\u0131yorsun ve bize para vermiyorsun derse, ona bana bileti g\u00f6ndermesini ve \u00f6rne\u011fin Burma'ya seyahat etmemi kolayla\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyece\u011fim, b\u00f6ylece orada sava\u015fabilirim.\u00a0<\/span><\/h1>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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